Peace Under Stress

John 17:13-19 “I am coming to you now, but I say these things while I am still in the world, so that they may have the full measure of my joy within them. 14 I have given them your word and the world has hated them, for they are not of the world any more than I am of the world. 15 My prayer is not that you take them out of the world but that you protect them from the evil one. 16 They are not of the world, even as I am not of it. 17 Sanctify them by the truth; your word is truth. 18 As you sent me into the world, I have sent them into the world. 19 For them I sanctify myself, that they too may be truly sanctified.

As I opened up my notes on my phone, disbelief swelled inside of me. My most recent work was GONE – a post I was really passionate about! “Don’t worry” I said to myself, “You are with me, Lord, and can give me all the words again.”I scrambled to jot down all that came to mind, in a different note app. Perhaps when I returned home to my computer, my work would be restored. I prayed, and endured my time out of the house, clinging to God to help me trust patiently. I’ve grown to enjoy the thrill of relying on the Lord.

As soon as I got home, I opened my computer. 
“Nooooooo” I cried to God out loud. “Please, LORD, return to me my notes!” I begged almost in tears. I obviously forgotten to sync my computer to the cloud before leaving the house. My phone that updates automatically every few seconds recalled and recorded the lack of notes.I had expectations of God. He was supposed to return my work to me. Ok, surely my computer-wiz husband can figure out a way to retrieve them.My tone to my son was not kind, as my patience stretched by the trial of missing notes.

At this point I continued to work frantically to fill in details. My writing lacked the passion of earlier work.
“Help me trust You, Lord, take away the stress.”
My hubby came back with report, we could update to the ‘premium’ version. Perhaps then, it might have a history of notes. Never mind, I came to the realization, I wasn’t going to just muddle through.
“Lord, You can bring my words back.”
As I carried on, words and phrases came back to mind.

Shortly later, the ‘busy beach ball’ as I call my cursor, spun longer than usual, preventing me to write. This was weird. My note seemed to double in length. I searched a key word as I edited. Then…
“You did it LORD!” 
My LORD returned my notes to me! ‘Conflicting modification’ recorded my previous lost notes!! 
“Thank-you, Father!”
I broke out into tears. He knew this was pressing on my heart, as I continually drew close to Him, asking for assistance in trust.

This trial showed the Lord carrying me through as I grasped to rely on His peace. God taught me not to put my work above obeying Him through the conundrum. As I mulled over the experience I wondered how I did. Was I really grasping to have control over the situation? I clung to God the whole time, even if I did everything in my power to correct what was ‘wrong’. 

There’s no mistakes with God… 

Every trial completes God’s good purpose. Through the trial, I was under His care, as He worked a lesson in me – trust in Him through the uncertainty. His will is best. His ways are better than my ways. (Isaiah 55:8-9)

Andrew Murray, a Christian pastor from South Africa, born 1828, wrote while going through a trial: “Let me say I am here,
(1) By God’s appointment,
(2) In His keeping,
(3) Under His training,
(4) For His time.”

God renewed my resolution to trust Him, from now on, through every circumstance.
Honestly, I just hope God’s not preparing me to lose the book I’ve been working on since 2014. Only if it needs a total re-write, if that’s God’s will. It happened to a friend of mine who’s a writer. Someone stole her computer with everything on it. Through time with God, she figured out her writing was for her healing. But God leaves desire, imprinted on our hearts, to comfort others with the comfort you received from God. (2 Corinthians 1:3-5)

How often do our prayers include pleas of keeping us safe and free of dangers and trials. We know cognitively if He’s letting us go through it, it’s for our good. (Romans 8:28) We like to learn, but would rather avoid pain and worry. Jesus shows us how to submit as He did on the Mount of Olives before His trial on to the cross. (Matthew 26:38-39)

As today’s passage in scripture ensures us, we must be in the world with it’s trouble and trials. He is sanctifying us, even as He is fully sanctified. Praise God, Jesus Himself intercedes for us to be safe from the evil one! Through Him, we have victory, for He has overcome the world. (John 16:33)

Jesus Himself learned obedience through what He suffered! (Hebrews 5:8)
Matthew 6:34 Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.

What does worrying accomplish? How different would things be if we completely trusted God through whatever we walked through? We’d hold firm to His peace which He so generously gives us. It would definitely take away at least some of the pain, and most of the stress, and if our faith is full… all of it.

Jesus didn’t promise to bail us out of every trouble, He didpromise to be with us through it! (Deuteronomy 31:6, Hebrews 13:5) 

Heavenly Father, thank-You for birthing in us Your Holy Spirit. By this, we are not of this world, but You place us in it for a little while. Enable us not to worry, but to trust in You fully, as Your love is unfailing. Continue to sanctify us, even as You are fully sanctified. Complete Your good purpose for our lives, bringing glory to Your Name. ~Amen

Extra Verses:
1 Peter 1:6-8
James 1:2-4
Psalm 37:10
1 Peter 5:10